Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Not Feeling It.

I haven't written in here in forever. This is very hard to keep up with, I don't know why. But I just never seem to have the time or energy to write in this.

Anyways, I had tremendous nerve pain for a while, my I had a tooth where a piece was broken off and the nerve was exposed. It caused the worst pain I have ever had in my life. I even ended up in the ER one night because the pain was so bad. They numbed the nerve which was the best thing for me. It gave me one night of sleep at least. I didn't sleep for like a week because the pain was so bad. Anyways, today I finally had the tooth pulled, so I'm hoping that'll be the end of the pain.

Work is getting too much for me, physically. I am in so much pain and so exhausted after a shift. And I don't know what to do about it. I can't stop working, because if I do we won't have enough money to live. But if I keep working, I just keep getting sicker and sicker. Fibro is not usually a condition that worsens, but I'm convinced mine is. What I really need is some sort of desk job or work at home job or something, but I'll be damned if I find anything.

*sighs* I'm just not happy with the way life is going lately.


  1. I'm always thinking of you and thinking of a type of job for you. XXoo


  2. I can't imagine being 21 with this dreadful disease -- and going to college -- and working! No wonder your Fibro is "getting worse". You are having one horrific flare after another, with no calm in between. I don't think everyone has good days. We have to settle for good moments or maybe hours, but an entire day just does not seem to happen. I hope you are seeking medical help for the Fibro. And, if this blog does not work for you maybe you could try another type of support. It really does help to talk and to read about others and know that you are not the only one feeling the way you do. Sometimes I think I am nuts, but then will read on another blog that someone else is having the same kind of symptom and some how it helps. You have got a lot (!!!) on your plate. You are doing remarkably well.

    I wanted to let you know how much I enjoyed your letter from Fibro! Man, have you got that damn Fibro being down to a "T"! Have you ever looked at this website http://judithwesterfieldfibromyalgia.blogspot.com/ Judith practices and teaches Therapeutic Creative Expression. I would not attempt to explain, but you might want to check it out and see if it "fits". You are obviously creative and since you are majoring in Psychology you might find it interesting and helpful. Just a thought.

    You will be in my prayers and I send you a hug, but gently.

    CJ, in time