Thursday, November 18, 2010

Fulfillment.

Fulfillment. Something we all want in life. We want to feel like we are doing something with our lives. We want to feel like we are making a difference. We want to have some sort of rewarding experiences.

This is something I am struggling with lately. I feel like I am doing nothing in my life. I realize in some ways that this is not true, because I am going to school so that I can someday do something. I am going to become a counselor and I do believe that that will be a truly rewarding career.

But right now, I feel like I am doing nothing. I feel like I sit on my computer all day, and the most I ever seem to do is schoolwork. Sure, sometimes I hang out with my friends and all, but honestly, I really don't do much in general. I just feel so unfulfilled. I need a job I can handle, or a hobby, or just something. I want to feel like I am doing something with my life, I want to feel like I am making some sort of difference in one way or another.

Any helps/thoughts/tips?

Thursday, November 11, 2010

It's Been Awhile....

It's been awhile since I have written here. Over 2 months in fact. I just haven't had the time and/or energy to do so.

Let's see...what's new. Well, I finished my first term at Kaplan University with straight A's, so I have a 4.0 GPA so far. That is absolutely fantastic news. I never did that well back at USM, it just goes to show how much better this method of online learning really is for me. I'm really glad I made this choice and am finally doing this the right way for me.

On another note, my fatigue has been really bad lately. It's been to the point where I literally can't stay awake for more then a couple of hours without being so tired that I have to go lay down and take a nap. My doctor has prescribed photo-therapy which is like the blue light therapy. Amazingly enough, my insurance actually covered a unit for home use and it's even small enough that I can take it traveling with me. I have used it once so far this afternoon, and so far I'm staying awake. I'm definitely tired, but not so bad that I can't stay awake or anything. I just hope it does help long term, because I definitely need something.

We're going on a cruise in December with Dan's family which I am wicked excited about. We are leaving from NYC and going to Florida and the Bahamas. Just what we need to break up a dreary, cold Maine winter. Plus, I've always wanted to go on a cruise, so I'm very excited about this. I just hope it all goes well, with his family and all. But we shall see I guess.

Well, I guess that's it for now, just wanted to write a quick post since it's been so long.