Well, life is just the same really. I don't usually know what the difference is to be honest with you. I'm not even sure what I'm saying, so disregard these sentences.
I'm currently in Massachusetts until tomorrow. We came down for Hanukkah, so here we are. It's been nice...a little mini-vacation is always a plus. I've been so stressed out lately and so its needed I suppose. I'm not even really sure what's been wrong, I've just been really depressed and whatnot. And so has Dan, so that makes it even worse. When we both get upset, things just get even more magnified and worse.
Work has been a pain lately too. Only really because it's Christmas season and the place is absolutely insane. It's wearing and exhausting. As far as work goes, I really can't wait for the season to be over. Although, I will get less hours and the paychecks won't be as good...so that part sucks, but Idk. It's just a stressful situation.
I really can't wait to go home for Christmas. I haven't been to Eastport since July, and for some reason, I feel a bit homesick. Probably just because it's Christmastime, and it never really feels like it until I go home. Idk. Hard to figure out really.
My life....is...well, interesting right now I guess. I wonder if I really do have Seasonal Affective Disorder as well. Beats me, but what I do know right now is that I'm not feeling the best. Physically or emotionally. And of course, we all know that the two are related.
Well, just a short update. <3
Sarah, it's okay to feel down and just indifferent, especially with FM. The science of FM shows that it can physically affect the chemicals that can make us depressed. Dealing with chronic pain and other symptoms is also somewhat depressing. Then, of course, some of us also have SAD to boot. Whatever the case for you, know that other fibromites have also been there, and that you will come out of your funk eventually. Maybe not tomorrow, maybe not for a few months, but eventually. In the meantime, it's okay to be in a funk if you need to.
ReplyDeletePlease continue to keep us posted, regardless. We care about you. :)