Fulfillment.

Fulfillment. Something we all want in life. We want to feel like we are doing something with our lives. We want to feel like we are making a difference. We want to have some sort of rewarding experiences.

This is something I am struggling with lately. I feel like I am doing nothing in my life. I realize in some ways that this is not true, because I am going to school so that I can someday do something. I am going to become a counselor and I do believe that that will be a truly rewarding career.

But right now, I feel like I am doing nothing. I feel like I sit on my computer all day, and the most I ever seem to do is schoolwork. Sure, sometimes I hang out with my friends and all, but honestly, I really don't do much in general. I just feel so unfulfilled. I need a job I can handle, or a hobby, or just something. I want to feel like I am doing something with my life, I want to feel like I am making some sort of difference in one way or another.

Any helps/thoughts/tips?

It's Been Awhile....

It's been awhile since I have written here. Over 2 months in fact. I just haven't had the time and/or energy to do so.

Let's see...what's new. Well, I finished my first term at Kaplan University with straight A's, so I have a 4.0 GPA so far. That is absolutely fantastic news. I never did that well back at USM, it just goes to show how much better this method of online learning really is for me. I'm really glad I made this choice and am finally doing this the right way for me.

On another note, my fatigue has been really bad lately. It's been to the point where I literally can't stay awake for more then a couple of hours without being so tired that I have to go lay down and take a nap. My doctor has prescribed photo-therapy which is like the blue light therapy. Amazingly enough, my insurance actually covered a unit for home use and it's even small enough that I can take it traveling with me. I have used it once so far this afternoon, and so far I'm staying awake. I'm definitely tired, but not so bad that I can't stay awake or anything. I just hope it does help long term, because I definitely need something.

We're going on a cruise in December with Dan's family which I am wicked excited about. We are leaving from NYC and going to Florida and the Bahamas. Just what we need to break up a dreary, cold Maine winter. Plus, I've always wanted to go on a cruise, so I'm very excited about this. I just hope it all goes well, with his family and all. But we shall see I guess.

Well, I guess that's it for now, just wanted to write a quick post since it's been so long.