One Thing After Another....

Wow, I haven't actually updated this in SO long. I feel like it has just become more of a chore than an enjoyment. I don't know why, it just seems that way. It's weird really, because when I first started this thing, I absolutely loved it and used it all the time.

Anyways, I left off right before Christmas. Dan and I went to my parents' house for Christmas, which was nice. It didn't feel nearly as much like Christmas as it usually does, and I think its just because I am growing up, and while Christmas is still nice of course, it just isn't the same as when I was younger.

While I was there, I started having some extreme pain in the left side of my face, which I thought was my trigeminal neuralgia flaring. It was beyond painful, and NOTHING got rid of it. I actually ended up in the ER once because the pain was just THAT bad, and they gave me hydromorphone (which is like synthetic morphine) and even that didn't work, that's how bad it was. After like a week or two of being in pain, it was finally discovered that it was actually TMJ, and that it was setting off my trigeminal neuralgia as well. My doctor put me on short-term prednisone (which made me soooo sick) but calmed it down, and it's been better since, thankfully. That was such bad pain.

So a little bit more time goes by, and I'm feeling horrible, so exhausted, sick feeling, etc. I thought it was just the fibro acting up, so I just let it be for awhile. But it got worse, and got to the point where I knew it was more then just fibro, so back to the doctor I go. Turns out I had gotten mono somewhere along the line. That was just wonderful. Let me tell you, fibro plus mono is absolutely horrible. I have never felt so exhausted or so sick in my whole life. It was so intense. Actually, I think I still have a bout of it, but I do believe that it is getting at least a bit better. While I'm def still tired, it's not as bad as it was.

Sooo there's that. But then this past Friday, I fell on the ice in my driveway on my bad knee (the one I hurt back in August). The pain was so bad. I ended up going to the Brighton FirstCare on Saturday night because the pain was just so intense and I knew something must be wrong. So they referred me to an orthopedic doctor who I saw yesterday. He thinks I might have torn *insert medical jargon here.* I don't know what exactly it was. But anyways, I have an MRI next Wednesday to figure out what exactly is wrong, and then we will see what needs to be done. I may need surgery or I may not, we don't know yet. In the meantime, I'm in a knee immobilizer and am supposed to be using crutches if I'm gonna be on it alot. Oh fun.

Oh and I have a cold now too.

So this is my life....see what I mean when I say it's one thing after another?

Butterfly (She Flies Alone) by Journey

She never knew the meaning of the word
Or ever heard or felt of freedom
All she knew was looking out from windows
Streaked with her own tears and her own shadows
Within a cage, tried to escape
The silent rage
Cause no one ever listened
Behind her back, she's both wings tied
She will break free
She will not be denied

And so she
She flies alone
High into the great unknown
And no one there to tell her where to go
So she flies
Sweet butterfly

Counting every second, minutes turn to hours
Seems like years
The wait's eternal
Finally passed the point of all lost hope
She will break free
She will not be denied, oh no

And so she
She flies alone
High into the great unknown
And no one there to tell her where to go
So she flies
Like a butterfly, oh
Yeah

Within a cage
Tried to escape the silent rage
But no one ever listened
Behind her back
She's both wings tied
She will break free
She will not be denied

So she
She flies alone
High into the great unknown
She don't need me to tell her where to go
Sweet little butterfly

So she
She flies alone
Up into the great unknown
She don't need me to tell her where she goes
So she flies

Within a cage
Tried to escape the silent rage
Where no one ever listened
Behind her back
She's both wings tied
She will break free
She will break free
Sweet butterfly